Earth Day 2007 [22 Apr 2007|01:53pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | blink-182 - Asthenia ] HAPPY EARTH DAY!!! Do something today to enjoy the wonderful beauty that our earth provides. Take a walk! Plant a tree! Recycle! <3 post comment

Hello, lonely; how you doing today? [17 Apr 2007|05:41pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Theory of a Deadman - Hello Lonely ] Tomorrow, I have the class officer meeting and after that, a meeting the the Belleuve Parent-Teen Mediation Program. I need to finish my posters, bring them to school, and have Mrs. Fallon-Hanan sign off on them, and I also need to finish my speech soon; everything should be handed in by Friday. I picked up forms for Drill... And for those unaware of the awesomeness that is our award-winning drill team: post comment

Community Service Hours [09 Apr 2007|02:38pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | hellogoodbye - Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn ] Haaaa. :D I just organized my community service records and it turns out, I basically have all my required hours (the ones you need to graduate) completed! I have 38 and a half hours done and we need 40. I have one event where I'm not sure how long it actually was; but if it's one or two hours, then yeah, I basically finished all my hours already! post comment

Crank [08 Apr 2007|12:54pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven ] I started reading the book last night, and I put it down half way into it. I woke up this morning. I have been sitting at my desk for the past two hours and I just finished it... it was a fantastic, scary book about the real dangers and terrors of drugs-- but again, the ending didn't satisfy me. But that's okay, I enjoyed the book anyways. I need something to do... post comment

Gentlemen if you're going to preach, preach with conviction [07 Apr 2007|08:56pm] [ music | Panic! at the Disco - I Constantly Thank God for Esteban ] On the darker side of Friday... about half an hour after Carolyn and I arrived at her house after Blades of Glory, her mother said she smelled smoke and told us that there was probably a fire in a house about a block away. We all went to investigate, and when we stepped out of her house, we could hear fire engines... and a roaring fire. Right before our eyes, about three doors down, a flame was eating up a house. It was terrible; it was the house of a student that attended Interlake. For a while, Carolyn and I just stood and watched the fire fighters work; after about an hour maybe, the fire died down a little bit. This morning, we decided to take a walk past the house; their entire garage was black, and the roof had collasped. Their car was still in the garage and sat in complete destruction. But thank god it was on their garage; I can't imagine how terrible it would have been if the fire had spread to the rest of their house. After viewing the incident however, Carolyn and I watched I Love Huckabees. It was a fascinating and wonderful movie. post comment

If I held your breath, at least we would touch [07 Apr 2007|08:10pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | Hellogoodbye - Stuck To You ] I just spent the last three or four hours sitting on my couch and reading Head Games by Mariah Fredericks-- the end is KILLING ME! The main character's "lover," (for the lack of other generic terms) never returns to her. I CAN'T LIVE WITH THIS KIND OF ENDING. In other news, I smell like very lemony ice tea and I seriously need a shower. On Friday, Carolyn and I visited the libary. I checked out Napolean and Josephine, Head Games (which I just finished), and Crank. Right now, I seriously need an super romantic novel right now to quench my literary craving. I am going to like. Die. Or something. I also need to make a list of books that I eventually need to read. Suggestions? The problem with all of these "young adult" novels is that, why yes, I find it wonderful that I can connect so nicely with these characters in high school, but the romance neeever develops to a point where it's, like, super intense. You know? Nothing ever really goes beyond a certain point. I'd read more "adult" fiction, but the ones I tend to pick up don't interest me........... they're all about grown ups, haha.... but I guess that's okay, as long as it's seriously twisted or exciting wonderful, but now I'm just rambling. Anyways, later that evening, we watched Blades of Glory with Keely. :] In other other news, I brought in my high heels to get the straps repaired and I got them back all nice and fixed today-- yay! This morning, Carolyn and I volunteered at this senior center near Redmond Town Center as a pre-Easter event thing. I faced painted-- it was awesome. I loved seeing how happy the children were when I finished; most of my drawings kind of sucked, but it was so nice how they appreciated it anyways. :) It wasn't actually face "painting" either; we used these paint crayon type of things, and they were difficult to use because they became dull really easily... Anyways, after that, Carolyn and I walked to Redmond Town Center from the senior center, and we met up with Keely and ate at Cow Chips. :D After that, we walked around the mall and tried on various clothing, like dresses, bathing suits, and shoes. I took a picture of some things that I liked. As I was saying......... I need a shower, and I am so relieved that I have so much time to relax....... spring break!!!! After I shower, I'm going to plop down and find something to do that'll quench my romantic literary cravings....... does anybody know any love stories miserable enough to make me cry, but at the same time really really wonderful? Preferably with a happy ending? Yes? post comment

Music Meme [05 Apr 2007|06:26pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | Keith Urban - Stupid Boy ] ( Read more... ) post comment

RANDOM [28 Mar 2007|01:08pm] I guessed the Lenny Conundrum correctly! Whoo! ... but I only received 200-something neopoints. >( LAME. post comment

[19 Mar 2007|11:07pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] I AM GOING BACK TO CAMP ORKILA 2 comments|post comment

[17 Mar 2007|06:10pm] On the way back from Target, in the car, my mother ruined my day. She started talking about how I am a bad athlete. I heatedly denied it, and so she continued to say it's because I'm short. I'm too short, so they cut me from the tennis team. I shouted back at her and stopped talk to her. I started to cry. I'm crying now. This week hasn't been a happy week. Everytime I feel content, everytime I feel remotely okay, something finds their way to my head and I feel depressed again. I hate using the word 'depressed.' Every other fucking teenager in the world has abused it to bits, to the point where it's lost its meaning. But there's nothing wrong with it. Sometimes, I seriously consider the fact that I may be slightly clinically depressed or bipolar. On Thursday night, I cried myself to sleep thinking about Camp Orkila coupled with getting cut from the tennis team. The day after, I couldn't fully open my eyes because they were so dry. It kind of hurt. I have nothing to make myself feel good about myself anymore. My mother doesn't even believe in me anymore; but what the hell does she know? At Chinatown this morning, she bought a packet of "Indonesian Swallow's Nest" for $500; it supposedly posessed medical purposes. She has been stressed lately (supposedly over my father; she keeps fucking blaming him for every fucking thing. I want her to fucking stop it) and she is suffering severely from her allergies... but fuck. That is a lot of fucking money. I wander away from Carolyn and Yaroslava after we finish eating. I always get upset because Yaroslava is talking about tennis; they've lost both of their games so far, and Carolyn is... I don't know, she's doing homework, and on Friday, she was talking about joining drill. I'm so sensitive; Carolyn has her hostile moments and I can't stand them. I get hurt and I isolate myself. I'm actually alone very often. What can I do to get over this predicament? I'm crying again, and it's over the same old thing-- tennis. I don't think I even care about going back to Camp Orkila anymore. And my mother knows nothing. I don't want anybody doubting me anymore; what I give should be fucking enough for you, because I try my best at everything and that should fuckign be enough. I don't want you determining what I can and cannot accomplish. I can fucking do whatever I fucking put my mind to. I don't need anybody fucking criticizing me. I don't want anybody fucking thinking less of me because I am fucking shorter than anybody else. There is nothing I can do to make myself feel good about myself anymore. I've lost hope of ever improving in tennis. It was fucking my fault too because I lost those three fucking games. This is hurting me so bad. 3 comments|post comment

Ten 'B' songs [16 Mar 2007|11:37pm] [ mood | tired ] Reply and I'll give you a letter. Find ten songs that start with that letter and post them to your journal. 1. "Bonus Mosh, Pt. 2" - Taking Back Sunday 2. "Bang the Doldrums" - Fall Out Boy 3. "Black Mamba" - The Academy Is... 4. "Bleeding Hearts Club" - Closed Heart Surgery 5. "Blurry" - Puddle of Mudd 6. "Bouncing off the Walls" - Sugarcult 7. "Bruised" - Jack's Mannequin 8. "Buddy Holly" - Weezer 9. "Build Me Up Buttercup" - The Temptations 10. "Bullet With Butterfly Wings" - Smashing Pumpkins post comment

I got a bad feeling about this, I got a bad feeling about this [11 Mar 2007|10:21pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | Taking Back Sunday - A Decade Under the Influence ] Saggitarius, on Monday, March 12: It is a fateful day and something may happen that appears to be out of the blue, yet there is also an odd sense of familiarity about it all. This can test your understanding of life, for it seems like what's unfolding now has actually been planned out in some other space-time continuum. Regardless of whether you believe in parallel universes, this one is sure to have some surprises for you. I have to pee. post comment

"That is going to be the highlight of my life." [10 Mar 2007|09:45pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | O.A.R. - Love and Memories ] DO NOT READ THE WHOLE BULLETIN!!! JUST QUICKLY COPY AND PASTE.... DON'T SPOIL IT. Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first... No cheating!!! 1-- C-TOWN 2-- KATYBUG <33333 3-- This orange sitting on my desk 4-- Gerard Way 5-- ... Strider [Kaitlin's dog] DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP THE TOP! - How did you meet 3? ... well.... I'm not too sure... I think my mother bought it from a grocery store... It appeared in my fruit basket a couple of days ago... -How would you feel if youd never met #1? I'm not sure, but I think I would be pretty depressed. SHE IS THE SUNSHINE IN MY LIFE. - How would you feel if 5 and 1 were dating? Wow. That would be pretty awkward but uh... since I love her so much that I would support her decision {Kaitlin: I WOULDN'T!]... but you know, they're not compatible. :( - How long have you known number 2? Four years xD - Who is 3 going out with? ... me, bitch. it's going to be in my mouth in a few minutes so... [IT'S A FUCKING ORANGE] - What's 3 do for a living? To satisfy my citrisy desires... you heard me. - Would you ever live with 5? THAT WOULD BE AWESOME, but I think he's better off with Kaitlin... Kaitlin would be very upset with me if I stole Strider. o.o -Where does 2 live? In Redmond, in TOS. - What do you like about number 1? She has nice teeth. - Do you miss number 5? :( YES <333 MY BABY - What do you think of number 2? I LOVE HER MORE THAN SLICED BREAD <3333333333333 - Would you ever go out with number 3? Yes... but not the way you think. - What would you do if 3 and 4 were going out? ... BITCH! GERARD WAY IS MINE!!!! I AM NOT LOSING HIM TO A FUCKING ORANGE! -Would you go to the movies with number 1? YES :O post comment

do you remember when we were just kids in cardboard boxes? [26 Feb 2007|10:59pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Anberlin - Inevitable ] azn K liq 510: ill let you borrow it for two weeks c is For Cynical: XD azn K liq 510: so you can stretch it out for me! azn K liq 510: hahaha azn K liq 510: =D c is For Cynical: pshaaa. c is For Cynical: i'm smaller than you, penis face. This conversation displays me and my cousin's fantastic ways of communication. This song is really great. :) post comment

Just ask the axis [24 Feb 2007|10:45pm] [ mood | full ] Sometimes we have things we want to say, but are too afraid to say them. This meme is the chance to get those thoughts off your chest. If you are reading this, post something in the comments anonymously. Anything at all; something funny, something random, something serious, something nostalgic, something brutally honest that you've been wanting to say but have never been able to, anything you feel you want to say just to get it out in the open. When you're done, copy this and paste it into your own journal, because fair is fair. Be sure that your IP logging is off. 2 comments|post comment

When you're a battery, you're either working or you're dead. It's a shit life. [24 Feb 2007|03:32pm] [ mood | enthralled ] Demetri Martin-- fantastic comedian. 2 comments|post comment

I just want to break you down so badly [20 Feb 2007|07:41pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Taking Back Sunday - MakeDamnSure ] I hate you sometimes; slash that, most of the time. It's not intense "I want to fucking kill you" hate, but just general, constant annoyance. You talk on and on and on and on and on about your day. Sure, I will listen if it will make you feel better-- but, to be quite frank, I just plainly don't care sometimes and it's hard to pretend I do. Stop screwing yourself over these tiny details; please, get on your life. I care about you, I really do and I care about what you are doing with your life and right now, you don't seem to carrying yourself too wisely-- not trying to be condescending or anything. We used to get along so much-- but beyond gushing all over each other like we used to, we hold almost nothing in common and it's diffult to hold a conversation these day. I know; you try so hard sometimes to get some words out of me, but you know-- people only ask about our day so they can talk about theirs. Even if I do have something to say and I want some input, you don't stand on the subject for more than five seconds before bringing the limelight back onto you. And what I hate most is when I feel like I say something really profound and it takes me hours mulling over in order to put them into words, you take them and you don't seem to ever get the point. Ever. EVER EVER EVER. Everything is "Oh okay" with you, and that pisses me the fuck off. Are you ACTING like you don't let anything get to you to seem STRONG? Who are you trying to impress? I am just trying to HELP you. There is no use trying to change you. And I'm typing this message because I love you and I care about you. Not because I think you are a horrible person or anything like that. Stop thinking over your plans, and put them into action. If you want to change, get off your ass and be the change. It's no use moping around whining about it. fiewqfjnowighneorgiweog Fuck you. post comment

The year of the fire pig [18 Feb 2007|04:07pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | The Used - Cut Up Angels ] Joanne says: It was really windy and cold in Seattle today. Kaitlin was laughing at me. Joanne says: I pretended to be a thug. :] Michael Marvick says: Did you beat anyone up? Joanne says: No! Joanne says: I'm a nice thug! Happy Chinese New Year! Kailtin, my mommy, Joan and I went to Chinatown for brunch this morning and then we came back and visited ROSS, where we shopped for clothes. It's the year of the fire pig. Chinese astrologists predict a year full of conflict because the pig is a water animal and it's... on fire... post comment

You color the coast with your smile [14 Feb 2007|04:48pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Dashboard Confessional - Carry This Picture ] Awww. :) Happy Valentine's Day. Hahaha... The Honor Society sang "You're Beautiful" to me in fourth period today. It was really nice seeing everybody with balloons and flowers today. :] After school, Yaroslava and I practiced tennis again... it was showering lightly. post comment

IN YOUR FACE, SHAKESPEARE [08 Feb 2007|11:35pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | The Moldau ] Thank God I will get some sleep tonight... I organized myself for this essay efficiently, and if I get into bed by at least 2 AM, I am sure I will score at least a B. Yay. :) post comment

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